Worse and worse
My day has just kept getting worse.
I went on that field trip. After five minutes, I was so wet, I just walked back to my car and left. I was so soaked, you could see the design on my leggings through my thick pink skirt. My jacket was so soaked that it’s still wet and in my car, leaving me no jacket for walking the 1/2 mile after class tonight. It’s going to be ~40°F.
To make that worse, my geo teacher admonished me for leaving without telling him. He doesn’t care that I was soaked and had another class, or that I can’t do the assignment. He’s just mad I didn’t tell him.
I got to my Calc class and my note taker isn’t here. That’s a problem on an epic scale since I missed two classes. So now I’m three nights behind in notes and won’t have any for tonight.
My calc teacher just dropped my test off with no apology for forgetting it. Now she’s rushing me to take it like I can magically make two hours appear out of nowhere.
What’s next tonight? Is my bio teacher going to anally rape my mother while pouring sugar in my gas tank? (Clerks reference).
I’m just done. I’ve had enough today, but I’m too stubborn to walk out of my Calc class because I’ve missed too much lately. The best part is that tonight I get home so late that I have just enough time to get ready for bed before bed time, then I have to be up at 6AM to do it all again tomorrow. GAH!EDIT: Sorry… Wrong blog again. And my other is linking it instead of posting the text so I can’t delete this one. Goddamnit.
What I mean when I say “I can’t do that”- Anxiety Version:
- I am unable to do that
- I am too stressed out to do that
- I cannot face the humiliation of attempting to do that
- My body will physically not allow me to do that
- I am on the verge of a panic attack
- I cannot do that
What people hear:
- I am unwilling to do that
- I am just shy
- I am overreacting
- I am lazy
- I need to get more experience in social situation to help my anxiety
- I need a push
- I don’t want to do that
Inspired by X
I got forced into doing something in my vocals class. I broke down crying and shaking shortly after.
However my teacher apologized later and let me sit down until the full thing had subsided
Nothing makes me more frustrated than when people try to force me to do something that I can’t or don’t want to do. Especially when they misinterpret what I’ve said about why I don’t want any part of it.
-UnstrangeMind on why autism “awareness” doesn’t help without acceptance